#257: Fearful Avoidant Attachment: A Deep Dive (Part 2)
Fearful avoidant attachment is one of the most misunderstood attachment patterns—and also one of the most emotionally complex.
In a previous episode, I spoke about the origins of fearful avoidant attachment and the internal world of someone who identifies with this pattern. But understanding the inner experience is only one piece of the puzzle. The next question is: how does fearful avoidant attachment actually play out in relationships?
Because while people with fearful avoidant attachment deeply crave love and connection, relationships can also feel profoundly unsafe to them. That push-pull dynamic can create a lot of intensity, confusion, and emotional whiplash—for both people involved.
Let’s explore why.
The Deep Longing for Connection
One of the biggest misconceptions about fearful avoidant attachment is that these individuals don’t want relationships.
In reality, most fearful avoidant people desperately want love, intimacy, and emotional closeness. They often long for relationships that feel deep, meaningful, and transformative. Superficial or emotionally unavailable connections usually don’t satisfy them.
Because they feel so deeply, fearful avoidant people are often drawn to relationships with a strong sense of chemistry, intensity, or emotional depth. In the early stages of dating, this can feel intoxicating.
They may:
Become attached quickly
Romanticise the relationship
Put a partner on a pedestal
Feel convinced they’ve finally found “the one”
Experience an almost soul-level longing for closeness
And honestly, this makes sense. Early-stage relationships are often full of hope, possibility, and fantasy. At that stage, the relationship still feels safe because vulnerability hasn’t fully entered the picture yet.
But eventually, intimacy deepens. The stakes get higher. And that’s usually when the fear begins to surface.
The Core Conflict: Wanting Love and Fearing It
At the heart of fearful avoidant attachment is a painful internal contradiction:
One part longs for closeness and connection
Another part experiences intimacy as dangerous
The attachment system says:
“Go closer. This feels good. This is what we’ve always wanted.”
But the survival system says:
“This isn’t safe. We need to get out before we get hurt.”
This is what creates the classic push-pull dynamic associated with fearful avoidant attachment.
Someone may seem fully invested one week—deeply loving, emotionally available, talking about the future—and then suddenly pull away, shut down, become reactive, or question the relationship entirely.
For the partner on the receiving end, this can feel incredibly confusing:
“Yesterday you said you’d never felt closer to anyone.”
“Now you’re saying you need space?”
“What changed?”
And often, the fearful avoidant person doesn’t fully understand it either.
Their nervous system has simply interpreted intimacy as a threat.
Why Fearful Avoidants Can Become Reactive in Relationships
Unlike someone with more dismissive avoidant patterns—who may simply withdraw or emotionally disconnect—fearful avoidant people often have a much stronger fight response.
That means when they feel triggered, they may:
Lash out emotionally
Become defensive or explosive
Suddenly turn cold
Push their partner away
Say hurtful things impulsively
Threaten to leave the relationship
Feel intense anger or resentment toward their partner
This reaction is usually rooted in fear rather than cruelty.
For many fearful avoidant individuals, closeness unconsciously activates old wounds around betrayal, disappointment, abandonment, or powerlessness. Their nervous system interprets vulnerability as dangerous because historically, intimacy may have led to pain.
So when a relationship starts to matter deeply, protective parts come online very aggressively.
In those moments, their partner can suddenly feel less like a source of love and more like a potential threat.
Fearful Avoidant + Anxious Attachment Relationships
Fearful avoidant attachment can look very different depending on who the person is in relationship with.
With an anxiously attached partner, the relationship often starts with intense chemistry and emotional closeness. Both people tend to value depth and connection, so the early stages can feel incredibly passionate and consuming.
But over time, the fearful avoidant’s more avoidant tendencies are likely to emerge.
As emotional expectations grow, they may begin to feel:
Controlled
Criticised
Smothered
Pressured
Responsible for someone else’s emotional state
And when those fears are activated, they may respond by:
Pulling away
Becoming defensive
Needing space
Questioning the relationship
Shutting down emotionally
Meanwhile, the anxious partner often responds by pursuing harder—creating the classic anxious-avoidant cycle.
Fearful Avoidant + Avoidant Attachment Relationships
When fearful avoidant people are with someone more dismissively avoidant, a different dynamic tends to emerge.
Dismissive avoidant partners often bring:
Emotional distance
Inconsistency
Ambiguity
Difficulty expressing feelings
Mixed signals
Reluctance around intimacy
And all of that can strongly trigger the fearful avoidant’s anxious side.
In these relationships, the fearful avoidant may become:
The pursuer
Reassurance-seeking
Hypervigilant
Clingy
Fearful of abandonment
Preoccupied with the relationship
Because dismissive avoidance activates the fearful avoidant’s deepest fears around rejection and emotional abandonment.
This is why fearful avoidant people can sometimes appear avoidant in one relationship and anxious in another. Their attachment system is highly responsive to relational dynamics.
The “I’ll Reject You First” Protection Strategy
Another common fearful avoidant pattern is pre-emptive rejection.
If they sense someone becoming distant, uncertain, or emotionally unavailable, they may:
Shut down emotionally
Lose interest suddenly
Pull away first
Sabotage the connection
Convince themselves they don’t care
This often comes from a subconscious belief that:
“If I reject you first, you can’t reject me.”
It’s a way of maintaining control and protecting against vulnerability.
Because underneath it all is often a very deep fear of being unwanted, abandoned, or emotionally unsafe.
The Shame Beneath Fearful Avoidant Attachment
One of the most painful aspects of fearful avoidant attachment is the level of self-awareness many people with this pattern actually have.
Unlike more dismissively avoidant individuals—who may disconnect from emotions entirely—fearful avoidant people are often acutely aware of the impact their behaviour has on others.
They can usually see:
The hurt they’ve caused
The inconsistency in their behaviour
The ways they push people away
The cycles they keep repeating
And when the nervous system settles after conflict or withdrawal, they often experience intense shame, regret, and self-blame.
This creates another painful cycle:
Fear triggers protective behaviours
Protective behaviours damage connection
Shame follows
Shame reinforces the belief that something is wrong with them
Which creates even more fear and defensiveness
It can feel exhausting and heartbreaking on both sides.
Can Fearful Avoidant Attachment Heal?
Absolutely.
Fearful avoidant attachment is not a life sentence. It’s not a fixed personality trait. It’s a set of learned survival responses shaped by past experiences and nervous system conditioning.
Healing involves:
Building nervous system safety
Developing emotional regulation
Learning to tolerate intimacy without panic
Creating healthier relational patterns
Working through shame and self-protection
Building trust slowly and safely
And importantly, healing isn’t about becoming perfect or never getting triggered again. It’s about developing greater awareness, capacity, and security over time.
With enough safety, consistency, self-work, and supportive relationships, fearful avoidant people absolutely can learn to love in more grounded, stable, and secure ways.
And that transformation can be profound.
Because beneath all of the protective patterns is usually someone who feels deeply, loves deeply, and genuinely longs for meaningful connection.
That longing isn’t the problem.
The work is helping the nervous system learn that connection no longer has to feel dangerous.
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Hey everybody, welcome back to another episode of On Attachment. In today's episode we are talking again about fearful avoidant attachment. It's a bit of a deep dive. This is part two. Part one you should go back and listen to if you haven't already. If you are already up to speed. On Part one. Today's episode is all about how the fearful avoidant attachment pattern plays out in relationships.
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So last time we talked about the origins of fearful avoidant attachment and kind of the internal landscape of someone with that attachment style. Today we're talking about how does it play out in the relational arena and we're going to talk about what that looks like at the start and how it can show up in relationship with different partners. You know, how does fearful avoidant attachment manifest in relationship with someone who has more anxious patterns as compared to someone with more avoidant patterns? Because as you might guess, that can be quite different depending on, you know, what you're up against. So that's what we're going to be covering here. As I said, go back and listen to part one if you haven't already. Before we get into that, just a quick reminder, I recently created a new course called Understanding youg Avoidant Partner. It's really short and sweet and it's really affordable. As much as my philosophy around this work for people with more anxious patterns is that focusing on your partner and deciphering them is not how you get to a place of peace and security within yourself, which I think should hopefully be the goal.
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It can be very useful to have more context for the way your partner is different to you in a non shaming, curious, compassionate way, because I think that opens up a lot of space for us to maybe take responsibility for our contribution to the pattern rather than just villainizing our partner and labelling them the problem and convincing ourselves and tell that if they were different, then everything would be fine. Of course that always feels true. Sometimes it still feels true to me. But as we know, it takes two to tango. And the more that we can take responsibility for our stuff, but also really try and see into the inner experience of someone else, of the person that we love and are in partnership with, then we can really maximise our chances of success in terms of creating a really solid collaborative relationship environment rather than one where we're just warring over whose way is the right way. Because spoiler alert, and I'm sure you know this, that doesn't work terribly well and you will stay stuck in that power struggle forever. So if you're interested, definitely worth checking out my short course on understanding your avoidant partner. It covers kind of the whole scope of what you would want to know and it is applicable to both fearful avoidant and dismissive avoidant patterns.
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So well worth checking out. And as I said, it is my most affordable programme. So I'll link that in the show notes if you're at all interested. Okay, so let's talk about the fearful avoidant in relationship. So I'm going to talk in general terms about, you know, relational patterns that show up and then I'm going to distinguish between more anxious partners, more avoidant partners, and how that tends to go. So as a starting point, someone with fearful avoidant patterns generally likes being in a relationship. They do really desire connection and specifically they can really long for depth of connection. Things that feel very shallow and super beneficial are unlikely to be very compelling for someone with fearful avoidant patterns.
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And you know, that makes sense because they feel so deeply and they have this intensity about them that unless someone can meet them in that intensity, it's unlikely to feel like a connection worth pursuing. So they do tend to seek out deep connection. And that can mean that, you know, they can get attached very quickly, quite like someone with anxious patterns might, that, you know, they can almost idolise someone or really romanticise them, put them on a pedestal. And I think a lot of people with fearful avoidant patterns can fall into the trap of convincing themselves that this person is the one. You know, they are going to be the one who will rescue me from all of my demons and my darkness and my struggles. And, you know, in this relationship, none of those things will be relevant because they really get me. And it feels so good, as it always does at the start, right? Relationships at the very beginning feel so exciting. And I think that's because hope is so intoxicating.
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And when we're just seeing all of the positives and we're so drunk on the potential of what could be, none of our wounds are really being triggered there. To the extent that our wounds are in play, it's the parts of us that are really young and desperately hopeful for redemption, rather than, you know, our defensive parts that are coming in and trying to protect us. So the feeble avoidant early on can really be all in on a connection and they can not only be on board with intensity, but they can actively seek it out. And that can really feed almost like a soul level hunger that they have for that, you know, that really deep longing and yearning for love and connection. Now, if you listen to part one, you will have heard me say that one of the defining features of fearful avoidant attachment is that the attachment drive and the survival drive are in conflict. And so the attachment drive says, go close. You know, connection feels good, develop that bond. And the survival drive, once you get there, once you're experiencing that intimacy, says, this is not safe, we need to go, you know, hit the kill switch.
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We got to get out of here, because I have a really strong sense that something bad is about to happen. And so there's this concurrent longing for and deep visceral fear of connection. And that naturally creates a lot of very conflicting messages and confusing, chaotic behaviour. And so while at the start it's all systems go, what will often then happen once you're in a relationship or there is some sense of forward momentum, is that sooner or later those survival systems are going to start sounding the alarm. And so there might be almost a sense of whiplash, of like, whoa, what just happened? You know, someone with fearful avoidant patterns might kind of freak out or, you know, have some kind of explosive thing of getting really angry or getting really triggered, often in a disproportionate way, you know, for the person on the other side, it might really feel like, I have no idea what just happened because this feels like such a 180 that, you know, it's totally incongruent with what you were saying yesterday or, you know, a lot of the time. And I've heard just hundreds, thousands of people's storeys that kind of fit this description of, like last week they were saying they'd never felt so close to anyone in their life and, you know, they'd never had such an amazing connection and they were so excited for the future. And now they're telling me they're not sure they want to be in a relationship and they need some time to think or something like that. There can just be this sense of incongruence and like a really strong about face that doesn't seem to make sense on the outside, and of course, it doesn't really make sense on the inside either.
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But that survival system, that protective system can just be so persuasive and so convincing. And it's not necessarily something that the fearful avoidant will be cognizant of in a really conscious way. Oftentimes it can actually feel like, this doesn't feel good anymore. I don't think that this is a good idea. They can just feel like, inexplicably, generally not turned off in the way that someone with more dismissive patterns might just lose interest or feel irritable or frustrated. You know, the fearful avoidant is more likely to feel quite threatened by the intimacy in a way that, you know, they feel like, I really need to get out of here. And they can experience, you know, by contrast with someone with more dismissive patterns, the fearful avoidant typically has a stronger fight response, so they can be quite conflict forward, whereas someone who's more dismissive avoidant will typically just turn away from conflict, avoid it, not really want to go there. You know, the fearful avoidant might lash out or they might have these big emotional outbursts or, you know, some other kind of impulsive reactivity that is just coming from a survival system that slams on the brakes and says, this isn't safe.
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And I think part of what drives that is, you know, the fearful avoidant will often be quite quick to make their partner the enemy. So it's not just, you know, feelings of mild irritation with a partner, it's real deep anger and even dislike of or hatred of a partner in the moment when triggered. Because there's like all of this legacy baggage coming of this person who is closest to me, who I depend on now, has the power to hurt me and disappoint me and let me down. And I almost resent them for that. I resent the power they have over me. Because feeling powerless when you are someone who has been victimised before, which is often the case for people with fearful avoidant patterns, that's an experience that you will naturally really push hard against and that your protective parts are going to try and compensate for. So feeling small, feeling powerless, feeling vulnerable is often overcorrected for. And, you know, that internal feeling of powerlessness or a fear of powerlessness can elicit a pretty strong response.
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Okay, so let's talk now about, you know, branching off between more anxious and fearful avoidant combo. More avoidant fearful avoidant combo. And I think the starting principle is that, you know, our attachment patterns and behaviours are responsive. So it really depends on what we're up against. And the fearful avoidant, because they have borrowed core beliefs and wounds from both the avoidant side and the anxious side, it really depends on what is being mirrored back to them or what's being triggered in the relationship, you know, how they tend to then respond. So with a more anxious partner, the fearful avoidant is likely to be more triggered around their protectiveness of selfhood. You know, don't try and change me, don't criticise me, don't try to control me. You know, their more avoidant side is likely to come out in their protective responses.
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As I've talked about, I think early on, the intensity factor can mean that the fearful avoidant and an anxious combo really can be like both feet on the accelerator, can be all systems go, like just fire on fire. Because while there is a complementarity around the anxious avoidant part, which I think tends to be an opposite subtract kind of scenario, the connection point is the depth and the intensity and that feels really good for both people. So that can really be all systems go at the start. You know, the emotional stakes are low, the vulnerability is low, both people are kind of leaning into the connection really hard. But when the stakes are higher, when the relationship progresses, when we start talking about unmet needs or we have conflict or there's disappointment or there's expectation or there's pressure, that's when the fearful avoidant is likely to respond to someone with more anxious patterns by leaning more into their avoidant strategies of, you know, pulling away or deflecting or defending or, you know, even suggesting that they don't want to be in the relationship or saying, I need space, or saying I don't know if this is going to work, or basically turning away from or disconnecting as a way to protect. And that's because they're more avoidant. Core wounds are likely to be triggered by someone who's more anxious. So those things around autonomy, selfhood, freedom, feeling, successful shame, all of that, which they tend to share more with the avoidant folks, that's the part that's going to be activated in a relationship with someone with anxious patterns.
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And so that's when they tend to be more in their avoidance seat in terms of how they respond. Now, if they get into a relationship with someone who's more avoidant, in my observation, it tends to be less characterised by that strong depth and intensity at the start. Just because someone with really strong dismissive patterns doesn't tend to go that deep and they tend not to have the capacity for that level of intensity that fearful, avoidant and anxious people do. But nevertheless, if someone with fearful avoidant patterns is in relationship with someone with more dismissive patterns, the dismissive avoidance behaviour around distance, around, you know, protecting their sense of self, maybe being a bit cagey, maybe being evasive, maybe being inconsistent or unpredictable, predictable or not really being very clear in their intentions or their feelings, all of that uncertainty that someone with avoidant patterns can inject into the relationship can really trigger the fearful avoidance, fear of abandonment, fear of rejection, unworthiness, those core wounds that they also share with anxious attachment, not being able to trust in intimacy. So in that scenario they might lean more into kind of the anxious, needy, clingy, reassurance seeking behaviour of being the pursuer, of reaching for the connection because, you know, they're feeling like it's slipping away and they really want it. They don't feel like there's anything to defend against because there's nothing incoming. So they can take on more of that pursuing, grasping role that we would usually associate with anxious attachment. The other possibility for people with fearful avoidant patterns, of course, is that they can adopt a you know, I'll reject you before you can reject me kind of approach.
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And so if they sense someone's being lukewarm or disinterested, they can shut down and disconnect and beat the other person to it so that they don't get rejected, so that they still feel in control. And that can be part of their protection as well, is like, well, if I don't care, then I can't get hurt. If I'm not invested, then I can't get hurt. And so that can be obviously a way of protecting against that vulnerability as well. Okay, I'm realising now that as I'm Talking there's probably a part three that we need to do which is like, what does healing look like? Because all of that might feel a bit pessimistic or hopeless if you're someone with fearful avoidant patterns or if you're in a relationship with someone with fearful avoidant patterns. Because it is really hard and there's a lot of pain there and there's a lot of shame and there are a lot of really deep self protective patterns that are powerful and they're not something that you can just switch off. Right. It's not like a conscious decision of oh, I'm not going to self sabotage in these ways anymore.
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I've decided I will now be secure. Of course that's true for all of us. There's work to be done and it's not as simple as deciding. But as with all insecure attachment patterns, this stuff is not set in stone. It's, you know, learned responses to less than ideal circumstances. And with time and patience and safe relationships we can actually rewire our systems to a different set point and rewire our nervous systems to a different set point. One that is able to rest more in safety rather than in constant fear and bracing and distrust trust. And so healing is possible for fearful avoidance just as it is for people with anxious patterns or people with more avoidant patterns.
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And so maybe that's a follow up. Part three that I need to do is what that looks like. You know, what does the self work look like, what does the relational work look like for people with fearful avoidant patterns? So if you would like me to do that part three, let me know in the comments below and I'll, I'll add it to the list if there's interest in that. Okay guys, I'm going to leave it there. Thank you so much for joining me. You know, I do have a lot of empathy for folks with fearful avoidant patterns. My partner has fearful avoidant patterns as I shared in the previous episode. So I feel like while it's not my own attachment style, I have a lot of experience firsthand with understanding both the inner workings and the outward manifestations.
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And I've also supported a lot of people who are either in relationship with someone with fearful avoided patterns or themselves identify with this. So I know that it can be really hard and confusing and I know that the deep shame can really exacerbate all of that because unlike someone with more dismissive patterns who tends not to have the self awareness or the sensitivity to others emotions to maybe realise what their impact is, the Fearful avoidant knows that and they can see it and they can see the hurt they cause and that can really reinforce the shame because, you know, they really do care. They care very deeply and they love very deeply and they feel very deeply and they try hard and they really want that love and connection. But sometimes, you know, their protective parts are just so powerful and so staunch in their defence of vulnerability and, you know, when the stakes feel really high, that can really trump all of that other stuff, best intentions. And so capacity can be real constraint. And of course, when the fog lifts, when, you know, the system settles after something has happened, a lot of fearful avoidance will look at what they've done and feel a lot of shame and regret and tend to be really hard on themselves for the way they might have acted and really blame themselves. And that obviously feeds that cycle of shame. And there's something wrong with me, which leads to more protective responses.
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So it can be really challenging and I have, you know, a lot of compassion for that on both sides. You know, the person who's stuck in that cycle and the person in relationship with someone who's stuck in that cycle, because that can be really challenging too. Anyway, gonna leave it there. Sending you lots of love and I look forward to seeing you again next time.
Keywords from Podcast Episode
fearful avoidant attachment, relationships, attachment styles, anxious attachment, avoidant attachment, relational patterns, intimacy, connection, survival drive, attachment drive, protective responses, emotional outbursts, conflict, self-protection, autonomy, shame, vulnerability, triggers, nervous system, personal growth, healing, course on understanding your avoidant partner, romantic relationships, power struggle, defensive behaviour, reassurance seeking, fear of abandonment, rejection, emotional intensity, relationship dynamics